Pushing Through One More Week

One thing I have learned in my life is that for every up, there is a down. Goodness gracious, y'all, this week was definitely a very low down.

To keep professionalism, I will not be diving into a lot of details. Let's just leave it at I felt that I received a lot of pertinent information too late and that it is frustrating that, as an intern, I must keep my mouth shut even though I feel like I should speak up. Of course, this started in the middle of last week, which set off an anxiety attack and led to a pretty rough weekend.
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There was a lot of self-evaluating that happened and a lot of realization that I'm a fairly negative person. Honestly, I don't mean to be. I believe it's not so much negativity as it is a realist, but I can very much see how people disagree with me on the matter. And it's tough being in that mindset. I don't always mean to have such a dark outlook, but I find it incredibly easy to slip into. The only problem is that once I'm there, getting out is like trying to pull myself out of a mud pit - not easy. It's much easier to sit there and stew than to climb out and keep running forward. (Yes, I did just make a simile to life using the Warrior Dash. I miss running.)

But God is good and allows us to have new beginnings multiple times in our lives. We get new years, new months, new weeks, and even new days. (There are many times that I am thankful a day will last only 24 hours.) Luckily for me, I can leave the old week behind and try to stay positive and happy through this next week. I'm not saying it'll be easy to do, but I will be trying my darnedest.

I mean, the week has started off well. All my students were calm and worked hard during their activities today. I'm suspicious, but I'm never one to look a gift horse in the mouth.

It's also my last full week teaching before I start transitioning out. It's crazy that I'm basically done here. It feels like I just started a week ago. I'm still learning so much every day; it feels like I'll never be fully prepared for my first year of teaching.

I just gotta push till April. I can make it.

Until next week,

Kaity

P.S. You can never use too many gifs. Hope y'all enjoyed!