I Am an Addict

I am an addict.

I am not proud of it - I've been struggling with this particular problem since middle school. No, it's not something like drinking or drugs, but addiction shows up in many formats. For me, it comes in the form of picking my face.

It's highly embarrassing, and I usually become very defensive when people point out this flaw. (It happens a lot more than you may think.) Recently, I realized that it's not their fault (although, still not the nicest thing to say to someone) it's completely mine. If I want all the talk to stop, I have to do something about it myself.

The first thing that I must do, like all other addicts, is admit that I have a problem. I see a flaw, I scratch. I'm anxious, I scratch. I'm bored, I scratch. I've even mastered scratching while I'm sitting still. I have a significant problem.

I'm putting this out there to force myself into a bit of peer pressure. I am releasing that I have a problem to the internet in hopes, not of pity or advice, but as a way to remind myself that people are watching.

This should have been the easiest resolution to fix, but it's been five months (of denial) and obviously I have gotten no where. Let's be honest - it's not like just stopping is an option. That's really not how getting rid of an addiction / bad habit works.

Really all I'm asking for is good thoughts and crossed fingers for me to succeed. The goal is by my birthday. That's two solid months and change of accomplishing this task. I really do want to beat this. I want the confidence that comes with it.

Thank you in advanced.

Until next time,

Kaity