I made it.
I made it through the first of three fairly crazy weeks and have started on a dead sprint for the second one.
Honestly, it's been a struggle. I'm still recovering from sinus junk, I have had very little sleep - but I took everything one step at a time. And I feel like now I'm being rewarded for that. Two teachers are out for the week, so that means classes cancelled and extra time. Next week is spring break where I can refocus my efforts on projects - although I work almost every day. (Show me the money!!)
My biggest project (or what feels like my biggest project) is happening tomorrow. I will be conducting my first ever lesson. And I'm thoroughly terrified. People telling me that I'm going to do fine only makes it worse because I feel like I'll disappoint them if it is a complete disaster. (Just let me sweat about it, please. I'll feel better about it after it's over.)
I cannot tell you how many of our teachers actually told us to be prepared for disaster. Never have it as a goal, but don't expect for it to work out. They are rooting for us, but they also want us to remember that we are learning. This is probably another thing that isn't helping my perfection Aledo-esque mindset.
Nevertheless, whatever happens happens. That's the long and short of it. Everything is a learning experience that forces me to prepare for the future. It doesn't matter if it's at work, school, or home, I am always learning - always being forced to grow, even if I don't enjoy it.
As for life right now - I'm disappointed in myself. It's March and I have been slacking on the resolutions. School started back up (after the crazy amount of snow days) and I just haven't had the opportunity to work toward the success of completing them like I want to. Good thing I have nine more months!
Anywho - that's my life up to this point. Crazy and wonderful and terrifying and cold. Always cold. I don't believe summer is a real season anymore.
Until next time,
Kaity
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